Finally, things have settled down for us a bit and we’re very much enjoying peace and quiet in our little apartment in New Albany. We know this time is in short supply- VERY short supply indeed. Kim is now full term, 37 weeks, which means our due date is looming even closer. We’re eating up every moment we get. It’s fortunate to have a public library so close to us. We’re tearing through books at an accelerated pace, alternating between baby books and novels.
Our thoughts are ever in other places though I’m afraid. Big decisions are always on the horizon. And being back in America, it seems the horizon is much more expansive than usual.
I’ve always been a thinker, an internal processor who likes to get his head around things if possible. That’s generally a good thing but if left unchecked sometimes I can think things to death! That’s sort of how future decisions are starting to feel. Often though it’s not possible to completely understand things. Even at my best I can’t see the future! At some point you just have to make a decision, not knowing all the details. That’s hard to do, but necessary. And really that’s what makes life interesting, ie. NOT knowing. It’s more of an adventure that way, right? If you put your trust in God it will be an adventure. I’ve seen this again and again in my life. I guess what I’m saying is that at some point you have to step out in faith, into the unknown. It might be unknown to me, but that doesn’t mean I’m alone. Nobody has 20/20 vision.
But at the same time God did give me a brain and a mind to think things through. That’s a gift to be used, not neglected. It’s important to remember too that people make mistakes and that’s OKAY. You can’t get everything right each time, try as we might. But God never makes mistakes, and if I continue to trust Him I know we’ll be headed in the right direction. It helps to think of it like a car. I want God to be in the driver’s seat of my life. God can steer my life, but only if the car is moving. You can’t steer a car that’s not moving. So sometimes I just need to press the gas pedal, get the car moving, and trust that He’ll take us where we need to go.